Random quick rant

We are all so closed minded to the world because of a few things.... Our education system is terrible, our media is blind, we have no worldly knowledge of other cultures which most other open minded countries all know about us and all around the world. In America we are all blind. We sit and over consume resources, food, material possessions, an we don't even have a value to it because everything, even people are made to be disposable. We slaughter and torture animals, throw our pets away to be inhumanely euthanized, we treat our fellow people terribly. But what is the real source of the problem. It is not the people. It is their information. Most people don't know about the problems. Not because they don't want to, because they aren't trained to think outside of the box. If we could somehow try to start incorporating an education system to the people that teach us about our environment, how our water is treated, how our food is processed. Everything, people would naturally start to change. This god damned religion shit has people so wrapped up in learning the fairy tale bible that they Aren't able to live in the real world to fix what is right in front of us....lets keep working toward opening people's minds and spreading good things so our lives can be better. Not through force, guilt, or brainwashing. Spread it by just being you, by just simply being awesome every day....

Saying goodbye

You always want to say goodbye to a loved one, get your closure. Be able to say goodbye to them, you love them, you will miss them when they are gone, give them one last hug.  However the closure is always most important within your own self. They knew you loved them, they didn't need that one last chat. You feel like that would have given you the chance to get closure with their death, but it wouldn't have. Losing a soul you love is painful. We as humans, imprint on one another and grow attachments and closeness to others.So when you lose someone that has affected a part of your heart, it hurts, and it is hard to realize why it is happening.

When someone dies, they are essentially gone in our modern day human comprehensions. If you learn to open yourself up to the universe and understand how energies work, then you will see they are not actually gone. Energy in all forms is a transferable thing. It comes in sources of heat, chemical, waves, and they are all used to convert it into new energy forms. As a human, with feelings and emotions, we are affected by death in the sense that it hurts our hearts very much, and we feel emptiness in place of that person. When a person dies, they are sacrificing their life, to give their energy to the universe. This energy is used by the rest of all living things. Immediately when a person dies, all that love that person and are directly in that persons life are affected. Their life is forever changed by the death. They took their life, and exploded their energy out into the universe like a super nova. This energy is directed immediately to their loved ones. Perhaps this initiates a great change within a loved one who needed a blast of this energy to wake up, and realize that life is precious and not to be wasted. That all your decisions affect your fragile life. To make sure that you do not waste this gift of time you have to mold the future of the universe. This energy is then dispersed by you to others, such as a lover, or a coworker, or a homeless man on the street.

I am not saying that this is how death works for everyone, or that it is how it should work. I am saying that for me, with my beliefs, I feel that this is the best way to utilize and make sure that you carry on that persons energy. They gifted you with their energy through their death. What you do with that gift is entirely up to you. You can waste it, or you can make the world better, or even simply your own life.

I lost my father at 18. It was actually the greatest gift that he has given me aside from my own life. When he passed away, he opened my eyes to so much of the world, that had he not sacrificed his soul, I may not have ever been able to see. I miss him terribly, but I know why he is gone. I understand the purpose of him passing. I would not be able to write this and understand what a gift people are giving to you when they pass on. They are still with you, living on through you, and the lives of all that they touched.

Be sure to live each day with the full intention to enjoy it. Minimize feelings that bring you unhappiness. Life is full of negative and positive energies. We of course need both to stay balanced, but you choose which side of the line you want to tread on. 

Evolution of the mind

Evolution.... this word has been tossed around in debate for a very long time.

I don't believe that there is some specific guideline and pattern that is being followed. That doesn't necessarily mean that I don't believe there could be either. I think that it is all by chance that each of these genetic mutations exist. They either flourish, or they die out and become obsolete.

However I do believe that the path that this planet Earth has gone down, has led us to the resulting complex melting pot.

In order for life to have gotten where it is now, we had to evolve from our monkey state of being, eating bugs out of each other's fur, and throwing poop at each other for fun. We slowly evolved into beings that were more nomadic, hunting our food, following the migrations of animals throughout the seasons, living off of the land, being one with the land, understanding the land. Growing crops and keeping livestock then became the source of human survival, and has obviously become the primary source for most of humanity up to the present day. Life during these times was seemingly simple, and yet stressful in their own ways. During these times you were focused on making the products in order to survive, you would harvest your crops to feed your family. This was still a time where the stronger you were, you had a higher chance of survivability.

Survival of the fittest. Does not exist any longer. With medicine excelling at such incredible lengths each and every year such astounding breakthroughs are discovered. The way that a physical ailment is taken out of a species to create a stronger more survivable generation is the sickness does not get passed down into future generations, because, typically the sick would die. The few with a weak genetic trait would not survive naturally, and would thus not last long in the gene pool of any species. Since now our medicine is so advanced, many seemingly weak traits are passed onto children, only to be kept into the gene pool. This may sound a little insensitive, and I am not meaning it to be this way. However in the "natural" world, this weakness would not allow the individual to survive long enough to reach a reproductive state. Since it passes before it is able to reproduce this trait is filtered rather quickly out of the species. Since now we are able to keep people alive for so long, they are able to pass along diseased gene traits to be kept into the genetic pool of humanity. Now let me repeat, I am not saying this is a bad or a good thing, just something that is happening.

Since this is the case now, stress seems to be a strong combatant that we are fighting to overcome. It has become the primary source for many sources of disease, cancers, mental illness, physical immunity. This is the biggest killer and threat to our life, and that is something that medicine is yet to overcome.

We as humans, do not like to think of dying. It is not a pleasant thought that crosses our mind. Stress is a gigantic threat to each and every one of our well being and survival. However this may be a new source of survival of the fittest. We could be witnessing the next step in an evolutionary process taking place before our eyes. Technology has become increasingly fast. In the past ten years, it has exploded. Information is brought to us at lightning speeds. We do not like to wait, we are into instant gratification. We experience and process so much more information daily, than a person even ten years ago did on a weekly basis. This has created a necessity of our brains to speed up. In order to process information, our brains will have to adapt and keep up. This is also going to make our stress levels go up. The fact of reality of the present moment in time. Technology heavily dominates our culture. In order to survive well, one must have the brain capacity to stay up to speed with the world.

Perhaps it is the next step to the evolutionary process. The path that life itself has taken on our little organic vessel. If staying up to a current brain power speed relevant to the increasingly fast world we live in also determines our survivability. Would it not make sense that the people that are now going to survive and flourish the best, are the ones that are able to handle more heavily involved and fast bits of information. Our species is becoming upgraded at extremely fast speeds. Each generation, is hopefully going to be better equipped to handle the fast paced lifestyle of the world. As a 6 year old, they are already subject to a gigantic amount of more stimulus than even I was as a 6 year old, just 20 years ago.

Here is the beautiful thing about evolution. Just as time and space have no beginning or end. Evolution does not exist with a starting point, or an ending point. Just exists in constant change. Infinitely forward, infinitely backwards. The mind blowing thing about evolution is this. Without the previous conditions the future conditions would not be. You cannot have a house built before the foundation. Evolution doesn't only pertain to life itself. It is directly involved with every aspect of this ever changing universe. You would not have a civilization of multicellular, complex, thinking beings, without the first single celled organisms coming together. It is all stepping stones. We would not have my beloved iPhone without the first car dash board gigantor that my dad had in his truck.

The incredible thing about all of these extraordinary changes in life...every single year, is that we are evolving at such incredibly fast rates now, that we can see it happening before our very own eyes. Just as the population explosion in the past 50 years has doubled, thing are speeding up. In every aspect. It is incredible to witness and be aware of.

If you so desire to read up and become more aware in the topic of things doubling, such as the population, and more specifically technology, check out Moore's Law :-)

Bee may be fuzzy but they are NOT cuddly

I have had this life long fear of bees. It's not like an actual phobia, more like one of those really annoying fears that makes you scream as if you are being murdered, but is slightly more annoying, so people just look at you like you are the idiot chick who screams at retarded things. Now it is mostly a case where I don't like when they get near me, I can see them flying around and appreciate that they are so cute and fuzzy, but they always just feel like flying right at my face. I don't do the calm hold still thing very well, I do the scream and flail method by instinct.





So one day I am taking a shower. I jump out and grab my towel and start drying myself off. I get my arms, move down my tummy, and lean over to start drying off my legs. I stand up, and come face to face with a bee...locked in the bathroom with me....blocking the door. It was as if he were some sort of guard bee shouting "YOU SHALL NOT PASS!!" He is literally just suspended in mid air looking me right in the face. Now I don't work well under pressure, or adrenaline. It's as if my brain freezes up and I forget that I am a human and I can think rationally. I do the first thing that pops into my head; I hold the towel up in front of me as if I can use it as a shield against his stare down. I realize he is blocking my exit, and start to panic. What am I going to do!? I am stuck behind this makeshift towel barrier and he is going to bust through it any moment! Well I quickly realize the only way to escape was to cover his head. So I throw the towel up and forward to try to catch him under. This is when things sped up for me. I did the whole shriek and flailing arms thing out of the bathroom. My sister is sitting on the couch in the living room reading her book peacefully. Then I run across the room, nude while screaming and flailing my arms back and forth as if I was in a bad horror film. Ya I was that chick.

Umm weird cat lady anyone?

So the other night I am chatting with my friend on the phone. He asks what am I going to do for the night. I have been avoiding going out lately, but kind of felt like I wanted a drink, so I ask him to hang out with me on Skype while I get drunk (he lives in another country). It happened to be 5:30 in the morning, much different to the time it was for me, about 9:30 pm. As I am talking to him, I am laughing at my two cats, and begin taking pictures of them. Now I am really getting into this night, I settle in with a drink for myself, slightly bummed he was going to sleep, I started to accept this as my cats were getting more and more entertaining to follow around with a camera.

He then lays it on me, no mercy here. "Soooo you're just going to sit at home alone getting drunk and take pictures of your cats....cool"

Oh god!! Is this true!? I mean when you put it that way....Shit! I was sitting at home, alone, about to get drunk and take pictures of my cats!! 

The start of life...

So when one thinks about conception, or at least when I thought about conception, I would think about the fact that the sperm unites with the egg, and a baby is created. A living creature begins to grow inside the mothers belly. Now this is obvious, it is not like I am telling you anything that is not apparent when you learned that the stork wasn't actually dropping children from great heights. So you think about the point of conception, the sperm implants the egg, and the egg begins dividing into trillions of individual cells creating a baby thing :)


This is what blew my mind about this thought, you as a person, a human being, began as two seperate living cells. You are made up of DNA from your mother's egg, your father's sperm. They come together and create you. You are not just an egg, and you are not just a sperm, you are both of these two individual cells. Now the thing that I found to be so crazy, was each of these were at one point living cells, inhabiting two different spaces, living independently of one another. Each was an actual living cell. So that means since you are both the egg and the sperm, and both of them were alive before you, then at one point in time, you, or what you are made up of, was alive in two different points. In two separate places. You have been alive in two different places at the same time before you were born. Obviously it wasn't you before the conception, but you are both of them.

I guess my point is just to really realize and think about the fact that you were somewhere in two places at once before you were made.

It does bring up the weird abstract question of when does the "soul" or the consciousness actually enter the body, you are the consciousness, so does that mean that any conscious part of these two individual cells just dies, or does it merge with yours.

Curious...

So the next time someone tells you that you can't be in two places at once, simply reply to them with this "I used to be in two places at once, but I grew out of it"


I will never know enough about the abstract questions of life!

The nicest compliment

I have found myself in a situation where I get to work with one of my dear friends, Lexi. Now this girl basically radiates sun beams of joy out of her crystal-like blue eyes. She has a rad haircut (please god let rad still be a cool word to use in front of my friends), and just such a cool style about her. Anyone she meets at work is instantly drawn to her personality, she is a professional charmer and it works on everyone...I mean everyone. I on the other hand am still learning how to interact in the public real world. If I forget to consciously smile, my awesome genetics have given me a permanent frowning face. I can stand there totally content and I look pissed, it's a gift what can I say. Lets just leave it at this girl is god a god damn cutie pie!

Lexi has just altered her style a little bit, her hair got a little more daring, her clothing is getting a little more funktified, and she is wearing these cool new rocker glasses. One of our sales rep came in today. Noticed how different she looked and her great new look she is pulling off. He looks at her, says wow Lexi, your hair is so great! Oh man I love the color you have going on here in your clothes and how it really just works so great with your new glasses. Wow you look so great!! I am just casually standing around waiting for time to pass at work. He looks over at me and notices me standing there too. I think he felt like the obligation to say something to me so I wouldn't feel bad, sometimes I guess girls get a little upset when one girl gets all the attention, haha. He is so sweet, he really did try. He looks at me, walks over and says, Oh and Caylee, your hair....it's so....naturally....Looong, and dark.

It was awesome, and so frickin hilarious it actually made me just use the word frickin!