Wednesday, November 30, 2011

The good, the bad and the reality

One may take the shape of many as life if a fluid substance and is ever changing. For each person's high qualities, come only from a fault on the opposite end. This is no guarantee for one or the other, but is an ever changing substance of personality. It exists as everything in the universe as a Yin and Yang relationship, a person is ever changing their positive and negative pulls. With this in mind, one must learn to accept a person for the whole being that they are. For if you took away one bad quality, you may be giving up the very thing that makes you love that person. Yin and Yang do not define good and bad, just a contrast of all things as a whole on opposite ends of a spectrum. You cannot have one without the other. Good and evil do not exist, just a contrasting reality of the universe.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

My first bus ride

I am sitting on the bus, and I do have to admit I actually quite enjoy my leisure time of bus riding. At the moment since I have no social life it is ok to take up so much of my time riding on this bus, but I do save about two hours of time when I ride chicken chase. I have met, well when I say met I observe, a great deal of interesting people on here.

My first ride I met and spoke to an old heavyset surfer. I would assume any surfer who is not financially backed by mummy and daddy ends up like this guy. He told me he just got back bodyguarding a guy who wants to hire him on full time for 10k a month. I would say the amount of teeth he was missing, which probably no doubt a direct result of all the drug use, was no where near the amount of brain cells he had misplaced along the years. He was very sweet though, and I felt bad for him when he told me his children wouldn't allow him in their lives. No doubt when they grew up and saw he would never change the pain they got from that was easier to keep him out of their lives.

He plays music for money in downtown Huntington beach. I have actually seen him before and I had forgotten until he mentioned it, he was easy to miss at the time as he was playing on the ground with a hat set out to collect his appreciations. Banging on a set of bongo drums I easily walked past him and into my restaurant to eat. Now I wished I would have stopped and given him a dollar or two as I undoubtedly gave my pissy waiter more for the service of ignoring my empty water cup, to be fair he was probably hungover so I can't blame him. The surfer talked about how one day someone will recognize his music and he will make it big. Sadly he was already on disability for his diabetes and I felt his dream would never come true before life took him away from it all. At least in his head he always keeps it alive and finds great happiness with his situation, sometimes that is for the best. Our journey comes to an end as he excitedly points out his house, a small trailer shared with multiple roomates, he pays a ridiuculous amount of $600 for a tiny cardboard room. He doesn't even care though, he gets a room where he looks straight at the beach from his window, a small $600 is nothing for what he is actually getting. This had been my second encounter with him, the first was insignificant to me until later it was given meaning by meeting him on the bus.

I did see him again. Although I was on my moped waiting at a stop light. He was riding his scooter, probably to go play for his crowd of people. He was riding the tiny metal scooter, that probably was never meant to hold even someone half of his weight. He wore a shirt, which was riding up his back, and hold up his pants was a metal studded belt, not doing it's job obviously since he had 2 inches of crack hanging over the scooter seat. He wore a little bike helmet and it was quite a funny sight to see. Particularly since I knew so much of his life, or at least his dream life.



Tuesday, November 22, 2011

The Moped Club

So I used to be a part of the Jeep Wrangler club. This club was basically everyone who drove one happily waved to each other as they drove past one another. Each of them getting this glowing feeling of the mutual understanding for the love we both had for our beloved wranglers. They have the slogan "It's a jeep thing....you wouldn't understand" and it is true, unless you own and love them, you really just wouldn't understand. It was a very prideful, and non competitive club to be in as you passed your fellow jeepers on the road. When one is 4 wheeling it is a little different, then you want to be bigger and better so you can climb vertical rocks and look cool, but I am simply talking about the road club here.



When my car was totaled last year I forcibly retired my membership, and joined the Honda S2000 club. This was ok, I just wanted a convertible, and this car was super cute, but it turns out mostly males drive this because they all want to race. Not such a user friendly club on the road, it is all about who is faster, and nobody waves. I sold that cute little bumble bee and now am car payment free :)




I have since joined a new club....the moped club. Now this is a club that is filled with the shameless mopeders, who get inner joy out of knowing they just spent $3 for the week to drive around. While it is a great feeling to know how much money you are saving, the club is scarcely populated. When you do see a fellow mopeder, some will wave, but I fear letting go of my handle my send me into an embarrassing crash, and I mostly just try to pretend I am invisible, and try to stare straight ahead. The only thing that brings any sense of coolness to the moped club when you have another one on the road, is that it takes about 50% of the loserness off of yourself, and spreads it evenly between the two of you. You don't feel quite as alone when you get to witness another moped riding down the road, you tell yourself, phew, someone gets me. It really isn't the most terrible thing to be riding, but I must say I do shrink a little in size when a sweet motorcylce pulls up beside me and waits at a stop light. I just sink into my seat and try to become smaller, and pretend I can't hear their loud rumbling machine sitting there next to me. All in all it is decent, and the pink hawaiian flowers covering my hog do make it a little more cute, at least that is what I keep telling myself. I have named him, er her, well him/her chicken chase.

I must say I do miss my old club....

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Starry Nightzzz



I woke up this morning with that eerie feeling you sometimes get from an unsettling night's sleep. I am slightly choppy on the details, but it was significant enough to share. I was standing outside, and looked up into the sky at the stars. It was a clear night, and the sky was glittered with glowing specs. As I am looking up, a whole section of the sky, a perfectly round cut out of it, began to appear as if it were shifting to the side. Upon further inspection, it looked like a time lapse photo of the stars, where they begin to streak across the sky as the Earth rotates.

The streaks began to stop moving to the side, and the round cut out began to actually start turning, and the stars began to shift around into a formation of the countries on Earth. I could actually see this cut out of sky begin to form whole continents from the light of stars on this invisible globe forming in the sky. This type of picture began to come together, like little city lights made out of stars in a section of the night sky. Once the stars all came together forming every space of land mirroring the Earth. This cluster began to start spinning around on an axis in the sky. The only reason you could differentiate the black sky and see it was turning was because the way these countries started to spin around over an imaginary globe in the sky.    

  At this time, I started to get this euphoric feeling. Something really amazing was happening, that no person had predicted to happen. Some crazy space phenomenon was happening with our sky, and it was mirroring the image of Earth. I couldn't think of anything other than something that felt like the end of Earth was about to happen. And then I started to feel my body start to float up, but from inside of my mind. I don't really know how to explain that one, but once I felt that floating sensation I had to fight it off. It was like seeing light at the end of the tunnel and just having your soul begin to move towards it. It felt beautiful, peaceful and like nothing at all. Something I would say would feel like the end of time, or the end of your own existence at least. Once I started feeling this sensation, I quickly realized I could not just go with this magical feeling and let it take me. I wanted to get ahold of Greg. I was actually terrified that this was something happening globally, and what if he went with that feeling. Or even worse, what if it wasn't and I was about to die and pass on without being able to tell him where I am going. I made me fill with panic, and I started to pull myself inside the nearest building, thinking perhaps that was safe since it was grounded, and I didn't want to float away. Well, my alarm happened to go off and either save me, or ruin the rest of my experience. Somehow that always seems to happen. Damn

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Stress


The basic instinct to any living creature is to survive. With that basic instinct is a drive to flee dangers that threaten survival, and if needed to fight those dangers. Any animal typically perfers to run away, unless backed into a corner thus forcing it to fight for life. In modern times, people don't generally have to use fight or flight in cases of actually surviving, however these natural systems still kick in on a regular day to day basis. The catalyst of these reactions are caused by stress. Stress is caused by many things, family and friends, traffic, boss, angry customer. Many many things cause stress every day in our lives. When your body goes into a mode of stress mentally, it also responds with physical reactions to the stress. These physical changes in your body are equal to reving up the engine to your car needlessly all the time. This will create more wear and tear on the motor and parts, and will eventually start to create problems if it is not worked on.

Other things that can cause stress on your life unknowingly are pollution, noise, crowds, lack of fresh air and sun, work, school, allergies, lack of sleep, anger and negative thinking.

Your mind is one aspect of your physical health and well being. With an unhealthy mind, this also creates an unhealthy state of physical being. Your bodies physical changes to stress are as follows: acceleration of heart, flushness, dialation of blood vessels, dialated pupil, shaking, loss of hearing, tunnel vision, adrenaline release. All of these are extreme cases of stress, but even minor stresses cause small physical stresses in your body. These physical changes are all your bodies way of allowing you to flee or fight. If you can picture yourself at work, your boss comes in, very angry. He wrongingly accuses you for making a mistake, but you are not able to defend yourself. Your heart rate goes up, your adrenaline is released, you maybe get a little jittery. This is a reaction of your body preparing itself to basically remove the stress or fight it off. Unfortunately, in the modern world, this is no longer a way to approach your natural instincts. So instead of fighting or fleeing, removing the threat, and allowing your body to return to a natural state of equilibrium, you have to sit there and take it. Holding it in, keeping your body in a perpetual state of physical stress, and just like the running your engine up needlessly. This puts unneeded wear and tear on your bodies organs. Your blood pressure stays high, your muscles are clenched up, you are in an unnatural state of being alive.

Stress can cause all sorts of temporary damages to your life, and eventually begin to increase in severity leading to more permanent states of physical decline. Things like high blood pressure, lowered immunity, sexual disfuntion, decreased metabolism.

Stress is unavoidable in todays world. It is unrealistic to believe you can avoid these things. However there are ways to help your body heal itself from these factors. The world is so high paced that people get into these routines. Small amount of sleep (potentially from stress itself), put a bandaid on the tiredness with coffee, rush around the house to get to work on time, sit in traffic, deal with public, coworkers, and bosses (who are all dealing with their own stress), run to a fast food place grab a bite to eat, once they are home, relax and put on some tv, and repeat. Then typically for the weekend head to the bar for a night out, and start your week off with a hangover and bad case of the Mondays.

Doing things like taking 5 minutes a day to breathe properly, clear your mind and just focus on nothing but relaxing can do wonders for your body. Eating plenty of veggies and some fruits will give your body tons of nutrients and vitamins it needs. Drink lots of water to flush out your system. Streching and excercise to release the tensions built up in the shoulder and neck. Get plenty of fresh air and sunshine. Believe in yourself and not what the media tells you to believe in or be. Make sure you get plenty of sleep, and potentially just try to do a relaxation excercise to calm your mind and prepare you for a good nights sleep. Smile.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Beliefs are nothing to be proud of....


People are under the impression that the beliefs they hold are something to be cherished and held onto tightly. And as I write this, technically my disbelief's in beliefs are not correct if we are to give anything I have to say any credibility (If that even makes sense). Let me explain a little better....

In life we are born, as an infant helpless and at the mercy of our caretakers, we begin taking in information from the world. The very beginning of our formation of opinions. As we age, our parents hold a large influence of our opinions. Then our teachers, and then inevitably our peers, who don't forget, have gotten their opinions from their parents and teachers, not themselves. Then you exit school into the real world. I would assume that is when people really begin to find themselves, but that seems to also be a time when people start to deeply root themselves into what they want to view the world as. Some stuck with their parents beliefs, some went completely against, but it seems many people just seem to stop and just deep root themselves. They become proud. Proud of their political views, religious, and over all outlook on people, and the world. They become proud, and sadly that is not a good thing. They forget that the world keeps on going. With this pride, comes an easily bruised ego at any debate in their internal person. This is WHO they are. This is in my opinion when someone becomes their most weak minded. They close their mind. Close mindedness. The possibility that there is actually more than you can possibly know is closed out. They forget that their are hundreds and hundreds of things out there just waiting to keep opening doors into the universe. But they have slammed the door on it before it even had a chance to show the real beauty. That is why I believe your beliefs should be held lightly, they should be adaptable, to show you a new world and allow you to keep improving life at every chance.

No great scientist ends his studies with "Oh great we figured that out, now this is my belief, my work here is done" New knowledge is always a constant flood, replacing new with old. When you take one belief and hold onto it tightly, you stop yourself from progressing in life. Life is constantly changing. The only thing constant in life is change. To hold on tightly to your proud viewpoint, means you are scared, scared of the inevitable changes that life with bring whether you are willing to accept it or not. We are proven wrong all the time in science, and religion, and life itself.


I am aware of my statement being completely contradictory to say, I believe beliefs are bad. No real meaning has to even be given to it. Some people are completely ok with living with their blinders on. And  that is ok.